.First Week Again.

yep, first week of second sem! its back too school again. far far west again(this my 3rd year traveling to boon lay). for Monday decided to go for only Accounting 2 lecture, the rest first lecture should be just introduction. so prepared for 2 1/2 hours of travelling time, wahhh, I'm really early, didn't find myself rushing for once, cose usually I'm late. LOL in the end reach with 1 hour too spare. was abit blur at the interchange, hehe. super long queue, 179A que almost reaching the mrt station. omg. btw, I always go back the night before. this time only yc went back. haha! then do all the stuffs(buy textbook etc.) joined yc for dinner about 5pm, then wanted to go home, was on board the bus already thou still in campus. then yc called say he locked himself out of the hall without key! LOL so had to go save him. then decide to wait for add/drop period start time at 7pm. argh... so many electives but can't get anything. someone drop the bioscience 1 for me pls! haha! andd! my home net is down at night, got quite a number of things to do online so ended up quite bored and started randomly sms disturbing ppl. hehe!

back in hall on tuesday. met my mentor with fab on thursday. Prof Cecil. this only the second time hearing him speak. always made me feel otherwise from wad the school been pitching, good grades, be proactive in CCA. too him, you should take and do what you like to do or what you want and not by "playing it safe". so this time his first question: "What do you want to do in you life?". honestly, I was stunned. yesh. I always say that I wanna work in the banking/financial sector. wanna get an MBA. but I can't pinpoint exactly wad I'm gonna do.

"..., only 1% of job are the glamorous jobs, 99% of ppl dun get those jobs, but dun get me wrong. this 99% are those that run the economy." He also made alot of strong points about business(IT) specialisation that I'm in. and mostly of them end up in the banking/financial sector. was begining to waver abt my course, cose comSci is begining to scare me.

"wait... I dun like this, are you saying you dun wan to do it cose it hard? or cose its not worth it?" both did cross my mind. always know its gonna be hard, but tot that I'm gonna put that hard work or extra effort in. I can do well. but sometimes, you just cant get it. Haha. then realise maybe I been wanting the wrong things, yesh results are important but gaining knowledge and wisdom far outweights it. just be able to tell yourself that you have done yr best is most important. sometimes I find myself blinded by results. sometimes I dunno if I do it cose I like it or cose I like to compete. Haha. feeling kenna silly. last sem I always hated uni. I missed poly. but now I kenna appreciate uni more, they demand alot, they seem scary, they break you down. cose they wanna built you up to be a stronger person.

this week kenna put everything into place. believing in myself, my own choice. I use to think alot about the time/duration, 4 years. am not getting younger(4 years behind already, got affected). but I really want to complete it and graduate. Haha. I'm acutally looking forward too the challenges now, its fun! doing it cose I believe it is worth it. this opporunity. and cose - there are no shortcuts to any place worth going.

Haha. its up to myself to put the value in it myself. will built myself up. Find what I love to do. its not 100% yet, but around 75%. wanna find more opportunities. more internship. more uncontrolled enviroment to test myself. thrown out all second thoughts. thank prof for his patience.

and! I got all my friends! haha. glad everyone's here. lets fight on! btw, this are the modules I taking this sem. still missing 1 elective thou. hoping get something good! tot abt one elective just now, next week gonna go try out the lecture! hehe.

CSC104: Logic design - circuits omg. quite alot of thinking needed and got 50% lab.
CSC105: OOP & Data structure - yeah. data structure part needs to be learn. lab test the tricky part.
CSC106: Discrete Maths - yep! lots of logic. need lots of understanding too.
AA102: Accounting 2 - finanical accounting!
CSC109: C Lang - online. need to be completed before march.
AB114: Communication Fundamentals - resume, presentation, speaking, letter writing.














gonna end this post with Steve Job's commencement address to stanford uni in 2005. its message- find what you love. stay hungry. stay foolish.

btw! found the song that I heard after gym last last week with shaun. yesh, agree with wiki that its a "a joyous ode to overcoming insurmountable odds" hehe...

When you feel your heart's guarded
And you see the brakes started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

When your life is going too fast,
off the train tracks
I can slow it down,
Just when you think you're about to turn back
'Stead you might crash
I'll be your ground,

And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the worlds have turned silent
So when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me.

When you're trapped and there's just no key
and you can't breathe
I'll breathe for you,
the fire has got you down on both knees
and the walls are closing in but i will
break it through
and when you feel alone
I'm be at home
Whenevers comes and go
You know I got you

I will be here right beside you
every step you take, yeah
I will be your strength, your shelter,
shield you from the rain

I'll be right here with you
You'll be right here with me

Brandy - Right Here (Departed)